I am this, I am that
I am half, I am full
I am difficult, I am easy
I am you, I am me
My wishes blend into each other
They take the shape of a bigger plan
They run after my instincts
And, without my knowledge,
I submit myself to the occasion
I become someone else
Someone less like my aware-self
More of an offshoot of my imagination
My contradictions run in plenty
They build me up
They tear me down
They teach me lessons
Some speak to me - all the time
Some deny my existence - all the time
In the middle of the night, in a half-asleep state
Love called
Caressed my face
Kissed my earlobes
And woke me up
Spoke about love,
hope, and loss
Of the times we
danced, laughed, and fought
Then whispered in
my ears –
“I am with you,
always.”
I sighed
I smiled
I
slept
Between a laugh and silence
I sighed
I sighed because it was comforting
It meant reassurance
Of something that was never a
disappointment
That was our strength
That felt right
That meant us
Between a laugh and silence
I sighed
I sighed because I wanted to hold on to
that moment
I wanted to look past our flaws
I wanted to feel your warmth
I wanted to sleep in your arms
Between a laugh and silence
I sighed
I sighed because that was the best thing
to do
It encompassed my untold sentiments
It echoed your wintriness
And our entire story… in a sigh
I always knew the consequences
I always imagined where this would end
I always saw the red flag flying high
I always noticed the half-laughs
I always felt the pent-up tears
Yet
I always loved you
It is no mediocre love
It is beautiful as much as it is painful
It heals as much as it hurts
It cares as much as it shuns
It fills up as much as it hollows out
You may call it a mediocre love
I call it ‘extraordinary’
